Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Happy (late) new year

"I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around"

NIN - "Everyday is exactly the same"

Time: 3:00 am
Its funny the odd and unexpected places where one stumbles across bits of packaged wisdom, even if its from a song. At the turn of this year I rose from bed in my relatively undersized apartment in Riyadh and realized that perhaps everything IS exactly the same. My routine was basically to work, eat, and sleep. However looking back at my past life it becomes abundantly clear that a constant uniform routine or stream of experiences has been against my nature (and my namesake for that matter) from the very beginning of my existence. I always need my immediate reality to be dynamic and changing. Simply put, I thrive in the Verve. 

Either that, or I have Attention Deficit Disorder. Hmm. 

Anyways I quit my job, packed up my things, moved out of my apartment, drove back to Dhahran, and spent the new year and much of January visiting relatives in pakistan. Aaahh the land of the disenfranchized.

Time: 3:12 am
"To buy a bullet-proof vest, or not to buy a bullet-proof vest?" is the first question which popped into mind before my flight to pakiland. Alright I'm kidding. (It was the second question).

Time: 3:15 am
After quitting my job I have intentions to continue my higher studies this year back in Texas, mainly in animation. Though I do also intend to study various other related and unrelated fields like philosophy, poli sci, linguistics, art and of course, architecture.  

Time: 3:20 am
A muffin in the hand is worth two in the oven. True story.

Time: 3:21 am
If I have to endure hearing Lady Gaga's name one more time I will hang myself with a shoelace.

Time: 3:22 am
While my appreciation for good art tends to go into the far flung nether-regions of graphic novel-dom and comic bookry, I am able to discern good art when I see it. Take this piece for example, by iranian painter Iman Maleki titled "Omens of Hafez" or in farsi فال حافظ.

A prime example of an impressive style of art known as Realism.

Looks real doesn't it? In a way its almost like a reflection of life itself. Some things that are real seem less real to us, and things which aren't seem more real than they should be.

Time: 3:30 am
All right thats all from me now. Adios!

(And for the record I have no idea why theres so many huge gaps in my paragraphs/lines. Must be a new year's glitch in the blog matrix.)


Illuminated Mind said...

i hate lady gaga.

i like NIN.

Khadija said...

Great to have you blogging again!

That picture... oh my.

Never settle for mediocrity, that's my mantra at the moment. There will be times that you will curse your decision, lament the predictability of the not so distant past, but you have to keep reminding yourself of who you are, what you want to be and remember there are always sacrifices to be made.

coralbead said...


Hmm you made a shocking decision there. I hope it will mark the start of better things!

ren_crow said...

Me too.

Thanks. True, only a foolish person would be unwilling to change in order to strive for success.

Haha who doesn't? I hope so too inshallah.

SKITTLES said...

Damn, I wish I could paint like that!

LOL you should check Beyonce's new music video, video phone. At the beginning you start thinking that Beyonce is so hot! and then all of a sudden this white lizard looking creature appears. it is only when the creature starts doing Beyonce-like moves, you realize it's human, and please get away from shoe lace, it is the one and the only Lady GAGA! hahaaha

Taqo said...

lol ok mr. i-hate-everything-main-stream-because-i'm-oh-so-cool-and-non-conformist.

post some pakiland pics!
i know it was beautiful and picturesque!

ren_crow said...

Yea I wish I could paint like that too. Would turn my admissions portfolio for grad school into pure gold.

You of all people should know thats how I like to roll. Eh i'll see what I can rustle up.